For far too long, I experienced the stranglehold of not living fully and completely in the present moment. My life journey seemed fraught with one disappointment, one landmine waiting to blow me to kingdom come and I felt horrible most of the time."Only when all conceptions of space and time, life and death, are exploded, when the grip of the past and fear of the future become merely conditions of one's past, only then can one live in the present fully." - Alberto Villoldo
It seemed to take me a very long time until I more fully understood that I was allowing my past mistakes and missteps [as well as toxicity and dysfunction] to define me and control my every waking moment. It was when I FINALLY felt broken by everything that had happened in my life that I finally felt AND grieved all of my losses (whether real and/or imagined) BEFORE I finally began to live -- here and now -- with no apology to anyone.
I am now grateful for all that I have experienced. The simple reality is that the totality of all of these experiences of my life journey has led me to this present moment in my life. I am now freed from the emotional stranglehold of my past. It is from this enlightened and awakened consciousness that I am able to view and appreciate my life as simply amazing.
Having survived what I have lived, I stand within the totality of who I am -- and always have been. I feel; I am grateful; I AM -- right here and now.
Stephanie Doty
Simply Amazing
January 31, 2014
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